My feeling is hurt now

status : i miss my grandpa

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i'm really sad. my grand pa is passed away yesterday.. [23.03.10]. i'm know i really not closed to him but i still love him.. i didn't talk much with him when he is stay at my house. somehow i feel regret because i didn't talk with him. i'm only remember that the last i talk with him when i ask him ' tokwan, tokwan penat ker? batuk teruk sgt nih. nak ela panggil mak ke?'

Mak lang come to my house. i hug her. 2 years we didn't meet. i meet all my cousin. abu, ami n ajam.. haha.. i love them but i only love them as my relative k. abu is the one most talk to me. he is funny somehow? Ajam?? erk?? my friend said he is handsome.. hahaha.. wht the fuck??

when they want to 'kapan-kan' my grandpa, there are 'kapur barus' there. [i'm just know wht is kapur barus yesterday] i ask my mum. 'mak, yg warna oren tu pe benda.' abu answer it. abu said 'tu tepung yg nak bancuh ayam goreng.' haha.. they mixed kapur barus with water for 'siram' at my grand pa's grave. i ask again. 'mak, tu air apa?' and then abu said ' tu air oren. diowang nak siram kat kubur tokwan' LOL.. i love them. kak najwa is here too. i want to learn more about japanese language from her.

urgh.. u know, those 3 always do 'road-block' at stairs.. it's hard to me go to kitchen from my room. when i said' oii,, tepi r skit.' those three ignore me. i kick ajam back. he is made fun face.. so, apa lagi aku pun hentak kaki r. ' and then abu dgn baiknyer, 'alarhh, bg r budak 'pendek' nih lalu. dia dh kawad dh ni.' am i not!! i'm not kawad ok!!!!

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stop talk about my grand pa's funeral.
i already got my exam result.
T____T
menurun!!
got no 3 from 17
my mum want me to get no 1 for final and mid year exam
if i get no1 in final exam i will get notebook.

ok.. i want to go to study now.
ja!!!